Daily Prompt – Careless Whisper

It happens: sometimes that filter in our head bursts and we say too much of what we’re thinking and someone gets hurt. Tell us about a time you or someone you know said something that they immediately regretted.

This will be a quick post, but when I saw the subject, I couldn’t help it. The most embarrassing thing I will NEVER forget and immediately regretted, happened about seven months after I came out of the hospital and I was spending a few days with a friend.

My speech was much better, though I was still having a lot of problems with focus, and especially, my filter. Things would come out of my mouth before I could stop them, because before the bleed, I was able to control this function.  shame1On one of these days we go to her parents house for a small barbecue and her brother was there. He is 14 at the time and of very thin build, yet his nickname is ‘Macho’.

We are all enjoying ourselves immensely and the parents are amazing with me, teaching me how to tell people off in Spanish, even with a stutter. 🙂 At some point during the barbecue, the brother was asked by his father to get something elsewhere from the yard. He told him that he couldn’t do it because whatever it was, was too heavy.

Out of nowhere, I looked up from the burger I was eating and said “I wanna know how in the world you got a nickname like Macho.” Everyone stopped what they were doing and stared at me in stunned silence for a second. I knew after a few seconds that I screwed up. All of a sudden ‘Papi’, as my friend calls him, burst out laughing and said something like they didn’t know either, but he had been the only boy out of four children…so they had hoped for the best.

In the end, it was all fine because they understood. Obviously, it took me a lot longer to get over, because socially awkward moments like that could happen to me at any time, any place. Thankfully, two and a half years later, I am about 80% in control of my “filter”, so it is unlikely that I will say anything unintentional unless I am exhausted, overwhelmed or extremely stressed out.

So, yeah, that was easily my most embarrassing moment in recent history. Until next post… later.

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Daily Prompt: Mirror, Mirror

When I look in the mirror, I see

a woman, though still weak physically,

but resilient in spirit and determination,

on a journey from a deep, dark abyss,

finding a way to the promise of

healing, red flowers and Prince Charming.

©L E Blake

 

Weekly Photo Challenge – Companionable

When I think of a companion, I immediately think of my little blue-eyed wonder, Sophie. She is my constant companion and has been with me through my best times and definitely my lowest and scariest times. She is one of my greatest sources of strength.
Princess Sophie hanging out on the deck. While I was in Neurosurgical ICU, she came to visit me twice. Although I can’t recall the visits in detail, I have seen the pictures. She laid by my side on my hospital bed the visit. I don’t know what I would do without that little one. I can’t count how many times I have cried into that little ball of fur, how many times I’ve tickled and rubbed that belly, or how many times she has licked my tears away. Too many to count, no doubt.

That kind of love is unconditional in the truest sense of the word. That is a companion.